I'm at week 51 now and still hanging in there, though I gained a half pound this week, making my total weight loss over two weeks 1.5 pounds, or about my average of .75 pounds per week. I knew that was going to happen, so I'm not disappointed.
This week so far I've had to deal with Valentine's Day, a traditional pig-out holiday (there seem to be quite a few of those!). I did pretty well on the day itself with eating a bit of cake, a cookie and some little bits of chocolate offered me at work. But I do find myself craving the chocolate, after only a small piece. I did okay with the cookie, though. I think I'm over cookie addiction pretty well, but chocolate candy is another thing altogether, it seems. Maybe I'll never get over that addiction.
Today I found myself thinking about the chocolate I still have (one piece), and how I can "get rid of it" (by putting it into my stomach, of course) so that I can stop thinking about it. These are all signs of addiction, of course. So I guess my coping level with chocolate is still at the "keep it away from me" level. Well, maybe I'll try again at the next chocolate-eating holiday (that would be Easter, I think).
Otherwise, I'm puttering along with my eating plan and my daily exercise. I'm telling more people about it, too, these days. That's a good sign, I think. It means I feel pretty confident that I'm not going to slide back to my old ways. If I weren't so confident, I'd be afraid to tell people because they might be disappointed with me later if I fail once again to get slim.
These are all familiar feelings to those of us who struggle with our weight. But I still think I can win this battle and stay slim, despite all the challenges. I'm really starting to understand what it means to be "recovering" instead of "recovered." It's never over; I'm never going to be completely free of eating addictions. But as long as I know that, I can continue to keep them at bay.
Until next time . . .
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